Confession

O God,
I confess that I have seen You at work in, even on my life.
I have seen You at work, I have heard You calling out, but I confess that I have responded sluggishly.
I thought I could put my life together
I wanted to have my life together
But I didn’t. I was missing You.
Not formally missing You - You were there on the stand in Your place by the Bible on the shelf – but missing You. I let You have a place, but I disgraced You by not giving You the place You deserve, that place that You require.

If I truly believed I would bind my soul to You and declare an oath of eternal fidelity; instead I have been content to leech from You a “free gift” and I have become a whore-mongering taker, interested only in self-indulged hedonism.
Forgive me, O Giver of All,
For I have used You
I have usurped You covenant promise
I have presumed upon Your grace
And made a mockery of Your mercy, while tempting Your wrath and testing Your justice.
I, Your vassal, beg of You O God to be gracious,
For I have not kept my oath of fidelity.
I have sought happiness from personal accomplishment
I have sought fulfillment from love and temporal relationships
I have sought gratification from the accumulation of wealth.

Enable me to live like Your servant Paul of Tarsus, cruciform, a life of servitude – even slavery to You. Let me affirm my oath by pouring out my life as an offering in worship to You.
May Your Holy name be ever praised, O Lord of my salvation.